Even Though

Earlier this week, I spent some time cleaning out my childhood room. Of course, doing so can take you way down memory lane. I had saved a lot of cards, photos, newspaper clippings, etc… but I’m forever thankful I ran across this one.

Mom wrote this to me the morning I graduated high school. It was not just a generic: “Congratulations! I’m so proud of you!” It was a personal letter.

She began the letter telling me I was still tucked away in bed as she wrote it. Each word was extremely thoughtful. Filled with encouragement, advice, and scripture of course. She talked a lot about me personally, my strengths, and what she foresaw for my future.

I brought it home to Jason and he said the same thing I’d thought. She wrote it for me because I would be leaving going to college soon, but it was like God made sure I found it for this season as well.

There have been so many things that God has revealed to me or spoken very clearly to me since Mom’s sickness and passing. More than He ever has before in my life. He has been calling me to opportunities and opening doors for me. I have wanted so badly to be able to call Mom and share my news with her on so many occasions.

Although I know that’s not possible, it’s like God sent me this letter to find. I know she wrote it nearly two decades ago, but my heart would like to believe it was sent from her from heaven for me today. For now.

For when I just want to communicate with my Momma so badly.

One thing this grieving process has taught me is this… when God says He works all things together for the good of those who love him and are called according to his purpose, it doesn’t mean he allows bad things to happen SO THAT other good things can come to pass. I think it means he is able to orchestrate good things for us EVEN THOUGH we are walking through something bad.

So even though I cannot call my Mom, I got a letter from her.

And that is exactly the way my loving God can give us something good even though we’re walking through something really hard.